Spilling my Heart on Digital Paper

For some, times are tough, good, or haven’t changed nearly enough to tell a difference. Times for me have gone into a downward spiral. And this may not be all about writing or hardly about the Within series but I just feel the need to throw down my problems somewhere and hope that I can get it through this thick skull of mine to move on.

Currently, I make good money for the area that I live in but like they say, “The more money you make, the more you spend.” And that’s the truth. But as of right now, due to possible foreseeable circumstances, I’m at this moment in time making $15k less a year. That right there is a pretty big chunk if you ask me and working to get it down to about $7800 less a year.

Now before any of my family or friends jump to conclusions and start contacting me in one way or the other, I’m still at my techy job and no my pay didn’t get cut. This has to do with big brother. My college loans have increased, by far. The good thing with this is, I’ll be pay them off in about 10 years but that’s 10 years of scrapping pennies together, as long as the interest rates don’t go up...again. Now to stick with my job and work through this decade of repayment hell.

I love the field I am in; I love techy electronics networking stuff. I enjoyed it in my youth and enjoy it now and it’s something I have a fair amount of knowledge on. But the hours that I’m supposed to work and promised to only work is not what I’m working and being on salary, not what I'm getting paid for. It’s like this, if you love a song so much and you listen to it over and over, you’ll eventually get burned out on it and that’s what I’m feeling and I hate it. Take something you love and drill you with it for an average of 12 to 18 hours a day, you’ll eventually get tired of it. Enough ranting, if I say what I feel, someone from work might read this and take offense and then I'll be looking for a new job.

That's all from me for now and I apologize that this isn't about the Within series but I just needed to vent. I only wish I was able to work on my novels and still make the same or better pay. Hey, it’s my dream, so let me dream.

Back to the Grind

Here we all are, 8/18/13. Finally my work schedule for the past 15 weeks has hopefully changed back to the way it used to be. From 12 to 18 hour work days back to 8. If only I got paid overtime… That’s a whole other story. Anyway, my work schedule has changed, my vacation, I’m on my last day, and a lot of things I have experienced.

During this time I have not gotten to write like I’ve wanted to and meeting my personal deadline by the end of this year is right out of my reach. But I can’t complain too much for I’ve met some interesting people that will be difficult to forget; some in a bad way, others, good. With the meeting of these people, character creation comes into my mind. Taking traits from these people and implementing them and my experiences with them into my characters.

I’m sure it’s the same or almost the same for most writers. But I would not have thought of these things on my own if I did not go out and experience them for myself. Branching out and opening your mind up to new ways of life is something I’m not keen on. I like to stay in my world, my bubble, and live life the best I know how. As I watch others in their lives, I don’t have to be directly involved, but I can get the basis understanding. It’s almost like going to Wal-Mart and watch people be…themselves.

Scary as that may sound, I’ll move onto the next thing; the categories of people. I’ve noticed also that there is a certain “type” of people they belong to. You learn this in school, not by teachers or professors mind you, but from your peers. The preps, the geeks, the nerds, the goths, the emos, etc. etc. and it’s no different out in the real world.

Don’t judge unless ye be judged. It’s not about judging someone but categorizing. You’ll notice in your life, knowingly or unknowingly, that you’ll see someone act and possibly look like someone you know personally. For an example, a buddy of mine’s brother (whom also I consider a friend) acts, thinks, and somewhat looks like a guy I worked with for the past fifteen weeks.

It was almost uncanny. So it is like, “Hey, this guy is like so-n-so. What if…” and I proceed to follow the same path I would use for my so-n-so friend (names need not apply) and what do you know, it worked. So if you are a people person or have a lot of friends, take a look around. You just might see a variety of similarities that you never noticed before.